So Fucking Cute

(part 1)


She's helping a sullen faced black boy pick out a pumpkin. She's empathetic. Voluptuous. Stylish.

I pretend to be choosing apples.

I look up. She sees me looking at her.

I see her looking at me.

Must act quickly.

To Wells Fargo. Now!

Write note. Write note. What do you say?

I scribble the following on a deposit slip:

Hi.

My name is Christian.

You're so fucking cute.

Fuck!

Why'd I write that? You can't say 'fucking cute'!

I'm a peds nurse.

Fuck! Why'd I write that?

(smiley face)

Fuck! That's so cheesy.

415-216-****

There. Done.

I see them turn down the organic foods section and I chase them with a full shopping cart in tow.